Gratitude 30Jan15 The Irony of it All

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I sleep with a rosary that I received from my sister for my 1st Communion at the age of seven. My wooden rosary beads are shiny from the rubbing of fingers over them, and a bit nicked. Jesus is hanging at an odd angle from the cross from my attempt to glue Him when He began to come undone.

Despite that, It is a treasured gift I sleep with because I often say the rosary when I can’t sleep at night. The murmurs of Hail Marys and Our Fathers soothe me and clear my head of the gazillion other things that occupy my thoughts as I lay there.

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I also sleep with my OVO vibrator. I discovered this vibrator at my local “toy” store. A clerk asked if I had heard about this latest and greatest invention. She asked, “Have you heard of the “G Spot?” “Yes” was my reply. “Well, this will find your A, B, C, D ..” and she began singing the alphabet song to me. Intrigued, I bought said item and under my pillow it lays. Like my rosary, I use it to soothe me into slumber, and it is everything it is hyped up to be.

What an irony I thought this morning, as I made my bed, that the two things that ease me and help me relax and sleep would be a rosary and vibrator. A while ago I wrote a prose called the “Saint and the Sinner.” It was about the inner struggle of being good versus bad that we all carry within us. The contrast I saw this morning of those two items under my pillows.

So much controversy could result from this discussion. I am going to keep it simple and leave it at the irony of it all. It works for me. I did mention I keep them each under a separate pillow, right?

Today I am thankful ..

  • The sun is shining, and you can see blue skies
  • I enjoy volunteering at the library
  • This amazing and beautiful country I live in

Whatever works for you, do it. I wish you success on your pathway and journey to peace of mind.

affectionately yours, Laura

Gratitude 28Jan15 Renaissance Women

Several days ago while writing in my journal, I went into great detail on my gratitude to the strong women in my life. The women I watch and admire. The women in my life, I take to heart their words and actions of wisdom. Women who are helping make me a better woman. In Maya Angelou’s words, they are my phenomenal women.

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They are who serve as my mentors. They make me push through the struggle. They are my sunshine in the darkness, my umbrella on rainy days. My eye of calm in the middle of the typhoon. Some are my soft tissue with extra aloe for my tears. Kindred spirits whose arms I feel wrap around me from miles away. They are my renaissance women.

My renaissance women are leaders. They are women who are not afraid to be who they are — they don’t follow the current fad or trend. They stand out. They are problem solvers, tenacious, self-confident; they encourage me to embrace those things within myself. I call them my “circle of women.” They are focused, brave, strong and have no fear of exploring new beginnings and accepting endings.

I have seen these women be unafraid to reach out for help, apologize and shed tears. I observed them in a constant state of learning. Not one of them has ever claimed to “know it all,” In contrast, it is when we collaborate that the best of our friendship flourishes and grows.

My renaissance women are real, raw and honest. Love isn’t only comfort, but it is also discomfort. Love is honest — it challenges, corrects and teaches without that unneeded dose of shame and disrespect. When you know that someone only wants you to be the very best you can be, that is a bond that is never easily broken.

These women astonish me with their lessons learned and how they incorporate them into everyday living. As a woman who has spent a lot of life running from the pain of her past, they give me the courage to stand, to face, to go through, to accept. Their example gives me courage and comfort, knowing they will be on the other side waiting for me.

The word renaissance initially makes you think of the “good old days” and the women that foraged through to make history. The women in my life are just that — in a modern world sense. My circle of women, which is who they are; who they aspire me to be. They take the gift of the past and blend it with the present and prepare for their future.

Today I am thankful ..

  • It is a brighter day than yesterday
  • Breakfast with a long time friend
  • The joy of seeing those I love dreams come true

affectionately yours, Laura

**revision from 2013

 

Gratitude 27Jan15 Love 4 You

Today I am thankful ..

  • My Love 4 You is growing beyond the moon and stars
  • Tears that cleanse; Strength the keeps me striving
  • The search for the perfect house has begum
  • The end is sometimes just the beginning of something wonderful ..

affectionately yours, Laura

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Gratitude 26Jan15 Green Eyed Monster

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Jealousy. That green eyed monster that rears it’s ugly head and has you roaring. You act in an irrational manner as your heart and mind races at a feverish pace. You can not justify it. It just is.

Jealousy is an emotion based on past experiences and insecurities. Jealousy has no reason or rhyme. It does have permanent damaging affects.

I was caught up in a moment of jealousy this morning. It came over me without warning. Using mindfulness as a tool, I identified the emotion source. Sure enough, it was the haunting of my past that inserted itself into my present. A few beautiful pictures began an avalanche of green rage. My mind began creating the “what if” and “I should have known better” rants. Some yoga and deep breathing helped bring me back to reality.

Jealousy is a universal emotion. Everyone experiences it. What we do when we experience it is what makes it lethal or lame. I found the following paragraph in an article Jealousy – How to deal with it by Catherine Pratt. They are words to learn from and live. Although there is still a faint tint of green mist in my vision, my vivid green eyes have returned to blue.

“The important thing to remember is to use jealousy as a sign to heal yourself or as a sign that you need to start working towards a certain goal. Don’t allow yourself to hurt other people simply because you have a wound that needs your attention and care. If you’re still feeling jealous then you know you’re focusing on the wrong thing. You just need to turn it around and start focusing on what you do want. Jealousy truly can be a valuable emotion if you let it.”

Today I am thankful ..

  • There is no snow in the forecast for Minnesota
  • I am slowly getting myself back in the yoga groove
  • The blessings in my life

If you are like me and are susceptible to the green-eyed monster of jealousy. Remember to slow your roll, see it for what it is, and take your power back.

affectionately yours, Laura

Gratitude 24Jan15 When Do You Pray?

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This week I saw the quote “If you only pray when you are in trouble; you are in trouble” I used to think that prayer involved something of a formal process. I don’t anymore. Prayer for me is an ongoing conversation with my God. It is what I do on a daily basis when I give gratitude and thanks for the simplest of, to the most complex things in my life.

Prayer can be whatever you want it to be. Prayer is a fluent and flowing gift. Prayer is done where and whenever you want. It is similar in thought to meditation or a private conversation.

Like anything in life, prayer becomes a habit. “Thank you, God for waking me to this new day.” “Thank you, God for getting me through this day.” “Thank you, God for my feet not looking like rising bread dough today. “Thank you, God for bringing me through the darkness unharmed once again.” To You, Father God, I give thanks and praise.

Today I am thankful ..

  • I opened my blinds to the sunshine and blue skies
  • I have nothing I have to do today
  • Day dreaming about my wedding has become quite entertaining

Take a moment today to pray. Whoever you look to as your higher power, give thanks. It is a wonderful world.

affectionately yours, Laura

Gratitude 23Jan15 My New Favorite Word

I have been missing in action for a tad. I had some days of darkness. I then went on vacation for a week. I am returning to get back in the writing groove. I thought I would begin with a new favorite word of mine.

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Today I am thankful ..

  • A wonderful conversation with my baby girl
  • We are having a Minneapolis heatwave in the 30’s
  • Paperwork for my 2014 taxes has begun!

A bit rusty as I get back into my 2015 groove. Your patience is greatly appreciated.

affectionately yours, Laura