Gratitude 25Oct14 I’ll be Back ..

FB_20141024_22_30_49_Saved_PictureThis blog has proven to be a success beyond my greatest expectations. In a year, I have logged 245 blogs, over 3105 views, and I have 152 registered followers from 7 different countries around the world.

If you look at my Welcome to My World page, I have stayed true to my writing style and my goals. I may even have improved on my grammar skills to the delight of my literary readers.

My blogs lately reflect the challenges in my life. Because of these challenges, I have decided to take a month away from writing my gratitude blog, affectionately yours, Laura.

I will be using the time to resolve personal issues and work on several writing projects I want to put closure to. Until I return ..

Today I am thankful ..

  • My passion for words and writing.
  • Family and friends who love me past my crazy.
  • My courage to love and forgive.
  • My tenacity to continue to keep striving, hoping and dreaming.

I wish you each a wonderful November. May the month remind you to be thankful and give gratitude to all that is in your life.

affectionately yours, Laura

Gratitude 24Oct14 When do the Tears Stop?

It’s a rough time of the year for me.

The anniversary of my brother’s end of life is September 30th, my biological Mom’s is October 18th and my adopted Mama’s is today, October 24th. All people I loved dearly and made significant contributions to the woman I am today. I mourn their absence.

I’ve shared stories about my Dad who is 91 years old. It is no longer a question of “if” it’s a question of “when” as he declines in his ability to manage a quality life of independence. I have been up to my ass in making the demands for his vision of the end of life happen for him. I am slowly letting go of the man he once was.

I carry with me the burden of an illness of which I fight my best battle against, knowing it will be back to claim me. My courage has me in a constant stance of preparedness.

no reason at allOn a day like today when the accumulation of these losses catches up with me, I am feeling overwhelmed with grief. I wonder when the tears will stop falling. Today, they haven’t. I have just given into the emotions and are letting them fall as they may.

Safe in my place of refuge. My home that offers me the security and comfort of what is familiar to me. It is where I will stay, till the tears stop, and I can face the world again.

As I finish this, the tears start streaming down my cheeks again. I beg the question. When do the tears stop, falling? A heavy heart and a worrisome soul I am.

Today I am thankful ..

  • Text messages from those I love.
  • My grandson turned 15 today.
  • I will see people I love this weekend that will offer comfort and support.

No one likes my unhappy blogs. I will get the cheer up emails; the your blogs suck lately. You can’t please everyone all the time. However, I can stay true to myself and write the reality of life no one wants to deal with except me.

affectionately yours, Laura

Gratitude 23Oct14 Save a Life

What would you do to save someone you love? Most folks, I think, would respond “anything” without censor. I want to challenge that.

What about the brother who has high blood pressure and doesn’t take care of themselves; as you watch them add more salt to their food. Or the morbidly obese friend who doesn’t exercise. You only get together with them to eat. The sister with diabetes who isn’t taking care of herself.

The friend who counts pieces of lettuce and isn’t getting enough nutrition. What about the cousin who is killing themselves one drink, blunt or pill at a time? The daughter you suspect is being abused by her significant other? How about me? If you knew I was suicidal, would you leave me alone? No worries. She just crashed “again.”

All of the above things I just wrote are things that cause death.

I agree everyone has personal accountability to take care of themselves. What if they are beyond the point of action to help themselves? Then there is the thought that their consequences have the potential to harm you or others you love.

I think of my family and friends who text or call me while driving. Worse, after indulging in a few drinks or smoke a couple of one-hitters then drive. The statistics are staggering, and the damage to many is far reaching.

I ask again. What are you willing to do to save a loved one? Too many times we are left to ponder at a memorial — I wish I would have gone for a walk with them. I could have gotten him help with his drinking. I should have reported that he was beating her.

Something all of us should give pause and think about. Is “anything” still your answer?

Today I am thankful ..

  • My flannel sheets, they felt wonderful last night.
  • Watching the birds play outside my window.
  • My Pumpkin Spice coffee creamer.

To my family and friends. I love you. Please, take care so I can have you in my life into old age.

affectionately yours, Laura

Gratitude 22Oct14 Today I am Thankful

via Pinterest.com / Wild Woman

via Pinterest.com / Wild Woman

Today I am thankful..

  • I got my first writing rejection letter. It makes it official. I am in the game.
  • The process of growing out my hair has begun.
  • Belly laughs from The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel movie.

For those of you who are working non-stop, a reminder, all work and no play make for a very unhappy person.

affectionately yours, Laura

Gratitude 21Oct14 Ode to You

©Al filo del mañana by anieto2k on Flickr (cc)

©Al filo del mañana by anieto2k on Flickr (cc)

The challenges; they will never end.
Be it love, family, health or job.
There will always be something
that will cause us to dig deep within
and find what calls us to rise above.

It is within ourselves we find the calm.
What centers us in our inner trilogy of
spirit, mental and physical.
Even through the confusion and chaos.
If you quiet yourself, the calm will come to you.

In times when you can not see that vision clearly;
in a haze of it all being too much.
The time when you need to hide away.
To have the freedom just to be vulnerable and you.
That is where you will find me waiting.

© 2014 llpeltier All Rights Reserved

Today I am thankful ..for today.  #gratefulsurvivor #warrioragainstdarkness
affectionately yours, Laura

 

Gratitude 20Oct14 Love + Me = Confusion

I am as confused about love lately as I am about algebra. I am looking at 2(3x – 7) + 4 (3 x + 2) = 6 (5 x + 9 ) + 3 the same way I am plucking a daisy saying “He loves me, he loves me not.”

via Facebook.com / Elephant Love

via Facebook.com / Elephant Love

Apparently, I have learned while searching the internet, I am not the only one. There are a gazillion articles and dating sites promising to help you find true love. Many of them being focused toward people over 55.

So, there is hope in finding my Prince Charming. In the meantime, I’m just going to take Jill Scott’s advice and simply live my life like it’s golden.

Today I am thankful ..

  • A beautiful autumn day.
  • The craziness of the housing search has begun.
  • I get to spend time with my guy.
  • My hair is simply buck wild today, and I am alright with that.

“If love is the answer, could someone please rephrase the question?”
Lily Tomlin

affectionately yours, Laura

Gratitude 19Oct14 Reasons

via Marilyn Monroe Wine.com

via Marilyn Monroe Wine.com

People were created to be loved.
Things were created to be used.
The reason the world is in chaos is because
Things are being loved, and people are being used.

Today I am thankful ..

  • Family, Friends, and Foes
  • #KennyChesney Wild Child
  • Blueberries for breakfast
  • Bi-annual bottle of Marilyn wine released and the label picture is from Milton Greene photo shoot in 1957 for LIFE magazine. A mighty fine year several of us will concur.  It is on my Santa Wish List this year. I do believe in miracles 🙂

Have a blessed day. #gratefulsurvivor #warrioragainstdarkness

affectionately yours, Laura