gratitude 28february14 labels and calories

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via Ebony Magazine

I love you, Michelle, honest I do. I think as a first lady you have shown grace and poise in the face of the drama that has swirled around you. You support your man, protect your babies and handle your household. I have a profound respect for that. Your project to help veterans with Jill Biden is admirable. The way you took on childhood obesity and the Get Moving program courageous. However, your latest project supporting the FDA (Food and Drug Administration) in restructuring food labels has me a bit on the “what the hell?” side.

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via cnn.com

I know your intentions are good. Yesterday, I watched as you explained it. You want us to be able to grab a food item and see if what you are buying is healthy. The thing is, Michelle, sometimes I like when my portion size and the calories I am consuming are on the vague side. Like, take for instance, my Chunky Monkey Ben & Jerry ice cream. I can live with consuming a half a container as being one serving for 290 calories. Not bad, I can walk those calories off. Until I read the fine print (that you want enlarged in big print) that a serving is really a half cup. Who eats only a half cup of Chunky Monkey? Especially if you are having a full blown pity party? This is right up there with McDonald’s putting calories next to my beloved limited edition Shamrock shake (660 calories) on the menu. My Shamrock shake will never be the same. In good consciousness I now limit myself to one on St Patrick Day versus one or so a week.

Sigh. Reality can be a real bitch. I know you’re doing this with the best intentions for me and our country. I am wondering if there could be a few products that would not have calories and portion size in size 18 font? I am thinking M&M Peanuts, Chunky Monkey, and my current obsession Wheat Thins Sun Tomato and Basil crackers. I do reserve the right to revisit these recomendations if they legalize marijuana in Minnesota (for medicinal purposes only).

today i am thankful for ..

  • this afternoon i will be handed the keys to my new home
  • scandal last night was wild!
  • we are one day closer to warmer weather
  • my life is comfortable

today i am listening to “A Long Walk” by Jill Scott

via Facebook/Fantastic Places

via Facebook/Fantastic Places

This picture is of a statue in Brooklyn, New York. The next time I am there I want to visit it. I am going to get a large copy of it and hang it in my new home. In many ways it reflects how I feel about my life right now.  I feel strong, glowing within, and still solid despite the cracks from age. She is beautiful with all her flaws.

Have a wonderful weekend.

affectionately yours, Laura

gratititude 27february14 dear mother nature

dear mother nature,

we really appreciated the white christmas. the snowmobilers and skiers i am sure are thanking you profusely for the snow. however, being as march is a day away, enough of winter already. we get that you are not happy with the way we are treating your world. the tornadoes last summer, tsunami’s, earth quakes and all the other unusual weather occurrences around the world are testimony to that.

since we are going into march like a lion, right now it’s -11 with a -32 wind chill, i am pleading that we wrap this winter season up and head into april like a lamb. i am sure you will be getting petitions from the tulips, daffodil and crocus committees for a timely spring arrival.

today i am thankful for ..

  • i am 2 days away from my new home
  • the song “happy” by pharrell makes me happy
  • it’s finally here — scandal new episode
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dock for one via pinterest.com

i am be here physically, however, my mind i am on this dock in the shine ..

affectionately yours, Laura

gratitude 26february14 bullshit

i have talked a lot of bullshit in my lifetime. people who keep secrets, aren’t happy with who they are or just don’t know who they are, tend to do that. that was me. i know i have written in the past about the whole “small minds talk about people, great minds talk ideas” concept. i compensated for what i perceived was a lack within myself with hype to make myself seem better. i have shared before, a big jump for me was to stopping saying and doing things to gain love and acceptance. for those who know me well, if i can be silent with you, feel no need to fill the silence with “words” you have entered my space i have allowed to few. many times i leave a situation and think “i should have just “hushed.” (granny always said “don’t say shut up, say hush.”)

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do no harm via pinterest.com

part of my self discovery is the comfort of knowing i don’t have to talk bullshit anymore. i stand on my own. i don’t feel i need to “make-up” hype to fill in my spaces. i am who i am. kind of like the whole popeye thing, you know? i have recently reconnected with people i thought would never like me or accept me — for me. my depression is such that i don’t have a whole lot of emotional energy to waste on people who don’t like me. i have been comforted by the acceptance, by just being me. slowly sharing who i am. peeling back the layers of my past that i feared if revealed would be held against me. to be accepted as the woman i am now, what the sum total of my past experiences have made me. wow. priceless.

that saying “it takes one to know one?” well, i know bullshit and if i choose, will engage in it for a short period of time. i am finding more and more i walk away thinking “how sad, i wish them well.” and hope like hell their stink doesn’t stay on me too long. the saddest thing, the more self discovery that is revealed to me, the more i understand why people have had to leave my life. and for that i pray every night for forgiveness and the healing of the harm i caused.

today i am thankful for ..

  • forgiveness and healing of one’s spirit
  • i got to have lunch with my best friend
  • one more day till a new scandal episode!

more below zero weather heading our way, stay warm and safe minnesnowta!

affectionately yours, Laura

gratitude 25february14 just because

Imagei am taking it easy today, just because. 

today i am thankful for .. 

  • my laundry is done
  • the sunshine is bright and calling my name to come out and walk
  • i am sorting through my pinterest boards and as always i am wondering “what was i thinking when i pinned that?”
  • i am down another size
  • gratitude fills me where dougt once was

wishing you the opportunity to pay it forward.

affectionately yours, Laura

gratitude 25february14 99 problems

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via google search

i have some more major organizing and planning strategy in the weeks ahead of me. not being quite “right bright” at this time, i am beginning to feel overwhelmed. i quickly went back to my taking good care of myself and keeping it simple approach. making sure i am sleeping, eating healthy, exercising and a list of 5 things a day i can achieve.  i let go of that obsessive panic of all beyond that and the swirling “what if” scenarios. with an outline for the next week, i got out my S.M.A.R.T. goal worksheets and got down and dirty with its principles. okay, are my goals specific? are they measurable? attainable? how do i measure their success? and what is my time-table for them.

february 2014 sort 170i grabbed my trusty wonder woman journal and started to write. get all the feelings on paper and out of my head. of all the hard work that lies ahead, it’s going to be alright. all is well in my world. despite where i am today ~ i remind myself this is one small piece of my life. it will pass. that and a reminder my statistics of success are greater than my failures. my life is filled with challenges. the energy it takes to get out of bed some days is epic, yet, i do it day after day. so it is with the realities of depression. all the more the reason to keep it simple and manageable. with that, the release of the overwhelming and negativity. yes, i have 99 problems, yet, i’ve eliminated at least one of them.

today i am thankful for ..

  • i made it through today
  • i have a workable plan in place
  • bath&body works sleep products are amazing

today i am listening to “i get by with a little help from my friends” by the beatles

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via pinterest.com

affectionately yours, Laura

gratitude 23february14 paris love lockdown

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no, i am not going to blog about kayne west’s song “love lockdown”. however, it is one of the few songs of his i like and i have on my ipod. my long-term bucket list includes the mission to go to paris and place a lock on the historical bridge pont des arts. this particular bridge has a legend that this is the bridge for “committed love.” there are “love lock” bridges all over the world. however, paris being my first european city i would like to visit and the pictures i have seen of this bridge, well, there you have my logic should you be wondering. according to bonjour paris, of which i am a faithful subscriber, here is an excerpt from their blog:

“For those of you who haven’t heard of them, here’s the story. A couple write’s their names on a padlock and locks it onto one of the bridges. They then throw the key into the Seine River as a symbol of their undying love. However, there is a difference on which bridge you pledge your love. Some say the only way to break the seal of love brought on by this love lock act is to find the key and unlock the padlock. Of course, that is nearly impossible, since the keys lie at the bottom of the river. This reality induces many brokenhearted individuals to return with bolt cutters to try to chop off the padlocks.”

being a single woman at this time in my life, i have given some thought to what will i do if i am still single when in paris. since having adopted the attitude of not waiting for someone to buy me flowers, or anything else for that matter, i have begun giving myself my own gifts and desires. why just this valentines day, i bought my own pandora charm, dinner and an ovo. my idea of a perfect valentines day. so, i am thinking just in case i haven’t bonded with the man of my dreams by that time, i will still place a lock to myself. a promise to always love, respect and be true to me. even if i do have a lover man, i will bring a second lock just for me with a big L on it. and that lock will never require a bolt cutter. ❤

today i am thankful for ..

  • we are one day closer to spring
  • a cup of tea is always good for the soul
  • my taxes are done and filed! yee haw!
  • i am single digit days away from my new home complete with a lock on the door!
from Bonjour Paris blog

from Bonjour Paris blog taken by Erica Hewins

affectionately yours, Laura