Last week I took a step of faith and handed the first of several projects over to a hard-copy editor. That two-hour meeting was filled with revelations. My dreams of being a best-selling author and public speaker were quickly put into perspective.
After all of these years of writing, it hadn’t occurred to me the dynamics of publication. First, while I write, in the world of writing etiquette, I am horrible. Second, I have not a clue of the structure to writing for publication. Like the minor detail of a Table of Contents. What a reality check. I left her with projects in hand. The one page she had proof read was filled with red highlighted corrections.
This weekend I approached an individual I have great respect for. They are not a friend, per say, they are independent of my personal life. We had a conversation and discussion about realistic writing goals. I asked if she would be willing to mentor me. There was an uncomfortable silence. Her response was “I don’t believe you want it bad enough. You have a gift. All I hear is talk about what you’re going to do.” “Where is your written outline of goals and business plan?” she asked.
I did not have a rebuttal to her statement or question. I had nothing. Part of me wanted to defend myself. I could not because she put my greatest fear to words. “All I hear is talk.” it was my Oprah “aha moment.”
She went on to say “Let’s talk again in a week. Come prepared this time. I also want you to tell me what you are willing to sacrifice to make your dream a reality.” I keep asking myself that very hard question. What am I willing to sacrifice to make my dream a reality?
Today I am thankful for ..
- Walking is good for my soul
- Another beautiful fall day
- Everything pumpkin flavored
- Being okay, with being okay
Sending love into the universe to those i miss so very much.
affectionately yours, Laura